The sun setting over the Dead Sea, Jordan. Believe it or not, it usually rises the next day as well.
My extended absence from this site should tell you all about the massive funk my creativity has been in lately. Normally, when I can’t write, I can at least find inspiration and solace in reading or photography; but over the last few months not even that has seemed to work. Hopefully this will be the start of a regular writing/reading process and my creativity can soar again.
And it’s not like I’m unhappy in my life. Could things be better? Sure, of course they could. I’d love a little more money to travel more. I have some great friends here, some great friends at home and elsewhere, and I’m never short of someone to talk to should I wish for that. My local grocery store has a new shipment of my favorite dark chocolate ginger cookies so I don’t go without those these days either.
It’s the Holy Month of Ramadan right now, and even though Dubai is not the strictest of Muslim countries, Ramadan is observed here with great care. I cannot go out in public during the day and eat, drink water, or smoke if I smoked. Restaurants and bars cannot serve alcohol until after the evening prayer (roughly around 8 o’clock). I’ve actually managed to go most of Ramadan without having any alcohol myself – and I’ve been out several times with friends. And you know what, I actually do feel a little better for it.
I’ve got an incredible vacation to South Africa approaching in August and that is keeping me excited. Next weekend will be a long weekend here – the Eid holidays which follow Ramadan. Dubai gets really crowded as many residents of the other gulf nations come to Dubai to shop, to explore, to experience world-class hotels and restaurants. It gets too crowded for my liking. And since I work for an airline company, and can avail of cheap standby tickets, I’m scouring our website to see which flights would give me the greatest chance of heading out for a few days. See, another positive!
I’ve decided, as I do about 10 times a year, to create a schedule for after work. I’m hoping the schedule will keep me focused. Most other times I’ve set up a schedule such as this it has failed miserably. I’m far too easily distracted. I have the attention span of 13 year old in his first whorehouse! Well, if a 13 year old were to go to a whorehouse. I never did. But, I’m easily distracted is what I’m saying. And my problem is that if I come home and change and plop myself down on the couch, even getting up to pee becomes a chore for me. I like my down time too much I guess. I know it has to change; I just can’t seem to want it badly enough to change though. First world Ger problems, ladies and gentlemen.
My schedule at work never changes. On days I work (Sunday to Thursday), I’m before 5 pm (unless I have errands to run). But most of my errands revolve around paying bills and I can do that online or on the weekend so I have no excuse. My tentative schedule looks like this:
5:00-5:45 – Running
5:45-7:00 – Shower, cooking, dinner
7:00-9:00 – Writing/Reading
9:00-10:30 – Unwind/Television/Videogames/more writing if inspired
Right now, my schedule looks like this:
5:00-11:00 – As little as effing possible. Usually involves calling for delivery of fast food as well.
Now, I had planned to start my “new” schedule on Sunday, but we’re waiting delivery of better office chairs at work and my back always feels like crap after 9 hours of work. My thinking was, and since I’m currently the laziest human-penguin hybrid on the planet it didn’t take much convincing, that if I run with my back a little tender and I hurt myself more, I’ll be even less likely to get off my butt and exercise when I’m feeling better.
As for the weekends, well, I haven’t planned that far ahead. I’m hoping once my creativity returns I’ll enjoy sitting at my computer hammering out words. Or grabbing my camera and learning what all the little bells and whistles can do. Or getting lost in a good book or interesting blog post. And possibly blowing stuff up on the Playstation.
Until then, I guess we’ll see just how dedicated I can be and am. With a big milestone date tomorrow, and a blog idea planned for it, there might be reason to return to blog again (for you and for me). And I will try my best to catch up. I have missed you. And I admire your perseverance and dedication by getting the words out on a regular basis.